The musical

So the 40 day bible has been interesting. im still caught up in exodus... wayyy behind.. but its cool. i need to get in the word more. tonite I went to our spring musical.. Grease. its funny how ronchy the story is.
everyone smokes, everone drinks. If you don't fit in the crowd that constantly fills themselves up with those things then you fit in with the prissy cheer leader crowd. the Jocks that want nothing but to be the best and if they arent the best they are nothing...
It appears there are two solutions to your problems. Conquor them in style ... or run from them with ciggaretts, alcohol, and other worldly crap.
I find myself stuck in the middle. "too weak to give in, too strong to lose"(foo fighters)
What I need to do is run to the cross. To stop feeling like I have to prove myself and to stop thinking that my dreams are too big for me to ever actually accomplish. I need to spend some time in quiet prayer to Jesus. I need to make sure that I'm living for him. cause i need to lose my life to save it. Hm. funny how that works. peace... zach

40 day Bible

Hey guys. so here we go. in this post are listed the dates and what our reading assignments are for those particular dates. first here are some things you should know.

The purpose of this endevour is not to fully understand the scriptures but rather to gain perspective. To read the entire Bible in such a short and intense period will hopfully give us some idea for how vast Gods plan for our salvation is. Above all let God use all the extra time spent in the word to work in your heart.

This is a heafty and intimidating task .. so heres the plan. If you are gettin over stressed, school work is suffering, or relationships... take a break!. taking one or two days off can be just what you need. rather than struggling to keep up . just skip a day or two. then you can go back at the end of the forty days and "fill in the blanks" (read any books you skipped).

I hope that we can all continue to pray for eachother and can all grow stronger in our faith.

Monday, April 20 - Genesis ch 1-25
21- Genesis ch 26-50
22- Exodus ch 1-20
23- Exodus ch 21-40
24- Leviticus
25- Numbers ch 1-18
26- Numbers ch 19-36
27- Deuteronomy
28- Joshua
29- Judges-ruth
30- 1 Samuel
Friday, May 1 - 2 Samuel
2- 1 Kings
3- 2 Kings
4- 1 Chronicals
5- 2 Chronicals
6- Ezra - Nehemiah
7- Esther - Job
8- Psalm 1-50
9- Psalm 51-100
10- Psalm 101- 150
11- Proverbs- Ecclesiastes
12- Song of songs - Isiah ch 33
13- Isiah ch 34- 66
14- Jeramiah ch 1-30
15- Jeramiah ch 31- Lamentations
16- Ezekiel ch 1-24
17- Ezekiel ch 25-48
18- Daniel - Amos
19- Obadiah - Malachi
20- Matthew
21- Mark
22- Luke
23- John
24- Acts
25- Romans - 2 Corinthians
26- Galatians - Philemon
27- Hebrews - Jude
28- Rvelation
29- Fill in the gaps.

Hope you all hear God's voice. and I hope that this experience becomes a blessing and not a burden and a trip to the eye doctors. Remember. No ones making you do this. Listing to Gods call. Grace and Peace.
Zachary

grow up

This weekend I decided it was time to pull the van out of the water. I told her that I couldn't take her to prom. She was pissed. Sooo pissed. But i know it was the right decision. I can't be with someone who is unequally yolked.

If there was a spectrum spanning east to west.

Crazy reliant on Gods provision, like John eating locust in the desert

-VS-

Working hard to provide for myself and being self sufficint (W/O God)

I am headed to the east.

she is headed east. but only plans to travel about 15 more miles that direction. that is because her motivation... her drive to continue is of worldly origin.

I don't know how far God will call me towards the East. But i know that unless my girl is willing to Go the whole way with me ... I can't justify tieing myself down... limiting Gods power.

I need to stretch my legs and run to the east... to the cross.

The world is behind me... no turning back... no turning back.

It's time i stopped blaming my failures on boyhood and began acting like a Man of Christ.

Pavlovs dogs

I'm workin on a 20 minute lesson that I have to present tomorrow in my speech class. Im teaching the class about classical conditioning. Pavlovs dogs. so.. for a little fun . im gonna give everyone in the class a dixie cup filled with koolaidemix. everytime i ring the bell sparatically throughout my speech they will dip their finger in and then suck the mix off. im curious to see if it works. it would be awesome i f I got my class to drool on command.. and kinda gross.. but mostly awesome :P

Im kinda like one of pavlovs dogs. See. when I get lonly i run to the first girl I see and hold on tight. Spending as much time (and money :( ) as possible together. Learning all about her . and getting to know her ( the king and I just popped into my head ). but its so unhealthy.

If lonleyness is the bell
And the Girl of my dreams is a cup of Koolaide
Then why am I drooling over nothing?

Ill wait for the Koolaide. Im sick of tricking myself into thinking that i've found the love of my life whenever the bell rings.

Lonleyness makes me crave companionship. But I won't be mislead by the bell.

I hope that we can all find Peace and Community in Gods family. As Brothers and Sisters in Christ.

The peace and security in a family of Believers is a victory for God against the lonliness that satan uses to try and lead us astray. Praise God for my family.

Submerged

today I saw a van that was stuck under water up to its windows. the area around my house floods alot and by the looks of it this guy hydro planed off the road and now the only part of his car visible is the top. when the rain dries up hell have to fetch it out. what a shame. its an aweful hassle . not nearly as easy as a crash where insurance would make a quick and easy fix. this way is just as expernisve. but much less practical.

I find my self in the same situation with my faith. Theres a Girl that I should not be persuing. Were not equally yoked. but shes nice. and theres no one else. i only see her once in a blue moon. I like her sure. but i know that its not meant to be. so .. idont know what to do. Im taking her to prom.. so I cant decide which is worse

Tell her that i think its a bad idea that we go together cause its just gonna get us more attatched to something that wont last. ( a car crash of emotions)

or to take her and then she realizes that she drove 3 hours to go to prom with me and my heart isnt fully in it. ( a van sittin in the water)

I don't know. ive got myself in a pickle . i care about her.. shes like family.. but .. i want wats best. and she clouds my judgement. though Im really to blame for that one. IDK.

Pray for me please. Mabey one day Ill get my head on straight. I wish you all peace.

Where have I been?

The end of fear is where we begin...

Dang. its been over a month since i've blogged. Im not happy about that. I used to look forward to reading my friends comments and to reading all of your blogs.
In my month away, crazy things have happened. ive been at my worst.. and at my best. I've seen God work through me, and ive made foolish decisions that are basically like giving the finger to God.
Its been crazy. but it has brought me to my knees at the foot of the cross.. so its been wonderful.
ive got alot of stories to tell. but im gonna start blogging again by readin my friends blogs.