the year

well. its been a heck of a year.
Ive had a mustache, beard, mohawk, shaved my head twice, grown it out long and the rest of my life has been even crazier than my hair.
My dad retired, found a new job, my moms back working full time.
I transferred universities from Upland Indiana (aka middle of nowhere) to Loyola in Down Town Chicago. life is good
God is good

Its been a long December and there's reason to believe mabey this year will be better than the last.

lazy day

I thought I had to work today... alas i do not.
Its thursday. no class. no work.
I probably should do home work. But I wont.
I've become completly apatetic towards school.
Mabey I will go to the well and work out.
ill probably read my Bible. or draw.
or play some guitar.
idk. ive got to do something.
sitting here. . . is the worst.
I'm literally doing nothing.

Prophecy

So I've been up in the air recently.
Not about any particular thing... more just about anything.
Truly I am in the midst of a Marcian chrisis.
A text book case of Identity moratorium.
This is ok though. I have been thinking alot lately.
The idea of living simply is so apealing. This is a statement that carries a dual meaning.
to live simply coudl mean to live out of a van owning two pairs of underware and eating whatever God provides you... or it could mean not getting an education, not caring, and just doing whatever feels good at the time.

It would be so easy to run off to chicago, party on the weekends with friends, do a good deed here and there, get married, get divorced, get married again, own a crappy car, and rent an appartment.

this is me speaking as the hard rock on which the word of God falls.

then there is the option of getting a degree and buying a nice car and making payments and gettin gmarried and being committed and buying a house and having kids and living the american dream.

this is the seed that fell umong the thorns.

what I need to do is find out what it looks like for Gods word to sit well in me and to turn my stomache sour and to grow in me. I need to persevere this testing and make a decision.. im sick of this luke warm faith.
I want to let God do incredible things through me.
the bible talks about raising the dead and healing the sick in Jesus name.

Gahndi doesnt have crap on that.

So why do I not inherit that power. How do I become more in tune with the holy spirit.

Music?
People?
The Bible?

God where do you want me.

Im so upside down right now. I just want you to put some grass beneath my feet. Please.

september

Back to school and studying at Southside Dinner. The waitresses come and go but the atmosphere always stays the same. Though im stressed and gettin kindof sick from the season change it's nice to have somthing to study again. I do wish I was getting closer to the guys on my floor though. I wanted to be so much more connected than I was on my last floor but i find myself even more detached. This isn't going well.

work is good. I'm working close to double what my credit hours are. Ever feel like school is on the back burners. I'm there.

Its funny how the last two statements seem to contradict yet co exist.

Fall

So summer has come to its end and school has begun.
I'm excited for this semester. My new roommate, new dorm, intenship, relationship, bands, classes, and everything else.
It's been so good seeing old friends. and making new ones.
I can't wait to see how God moves on this campus this year.
I just hope i don't get in the way too much and that I can do my part.

Jim and Ave

So saturday the Crew of Boat Church went to do some chores for a couple in the area who is moving. Jim and Avaline are the cutest old couple Ive ever met. Maried in their late 20s they have now been together 45 years. They are moving from upland to hartford and their house needs some serious work. It was so lovley chatting with Jim and working in the afternoon heat. They are a truley unique couple with a special sensitivity to the spirit. Just wonderful.

The Emerson

The Colourful Played at the Emerson tonight. A wonderfully shady little venue. I met a guy named Wes. Hes fantastic. Wes plays bass for Call You Out. All great guys. I'm hoping to hang out with them more. For now I'm going to spend some time with my little sis. She is in town to visit and it's been great hanging out with her. I miss my family. Though I don't regret moving out this summer. It's been good.