Submerged

today I saw a van that was stuck under water up to its windows. the area around my house floods alot and by the looks of it this guy hydro planed off the road and now the only part of his car visible is the top. when the rain dries up hell have to fetch it out. what a shame. its an aweful hassle . not nearly as easy as a crash where insurance would make a quick and easy fix. this way is just as expernisve. but much less practical.

I find my self in the same situation with my faith. Theres a Girl that I should not be persuing. Were not equally yoked. but shes nice. and theres no one else. i only see her once in a blue moon. I like her sure. but i know that its not meant to be. so .. idont know what to do. Im taking her to prom.. so I cant decide which is worse

Tell her that i think its a bad idea that we go together cause its just gonna get us more attatched to something that wont last. ( a car crash of emotions)

or to take her and then she realizes that she drove 3 hours to go to prom with me and my heart isnt fully in it. ( a van sittin in the water)

I don't know. ive got myself in a pickle . i care about her.. shes like family.. but .. i want wats best. and she clouds my judgement. though Im really to blame for that one. IDK.

Pray for me please. Mabey one day Ill get my head on straight. I wish you all peace.

Where have I been?

The end of fear is where we begin...

Dang. its been over a month since i've blogged. Im not happy about that. I used to look forward to reading my friends comments and to reading all of your blogs.
In my month away, crazy things have happened. ive been at my worst.. and at my best. I've seen God work through me, and ive made foolish decisions that are basically like giving the finger to God.
Its been crazy. but it has brought me to my knees at the foot of the cross.. so its been wonderful.
ive got alot of stories to tell. but im gonna start blogging again by readin my friends blogs.

I miss the pitts(burgh)

So i went to a retreat this weekend out near pittsburgh. A friend and I drove over 7 hours to go spend the weekend away from every day life and have an encounter with God. Man was God ever big this weekend. The thing I rememberr most was the prayer labrynth. I was in a dimly lit area. After going through several experiences I was left with a vision of an inprint. A very specific one. One that you could try to fill. but would never truly fill. the imprint of my being. one that only God can fill. I laid there crying for at least 15 minutes over welmed by the thought that God dreamed about me like a lover. Before he breathed me into life God dreamed about making me. About how I would smile. And how i would cry. About how i would dance like there was no tomorrow at the sound of his name and how I would struggle through the hard times and be faithful to a Him who created and loves me. He dreamed about making me.. Its amazing.. that God could love me. a sinner like me. sooooo much.. God is good .. Sooo good. Have a great day.. but take a minute. shut off the lights. the tv. the music. just kneel by your bed side. quiet your life for just a bit.. shutt off the cell phone .. some one else wants to talk.. spend some time talking to God.. Then open his word. read and listen.. Open your heart. Let God in to places that are usually conjested with the worlds crap ( skubalin) and He will fill those cracks.

Lay it Down

Surender is So scary.

And So Beautiful.

Watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-qz2ZWcvg4

I love playing guitar

Somthing about music just sooths the soul.

I love playing guitar. It's what lead me to Jesus.

I love playin for people because i get to use my gift.

It puts a smile on my face that no one can erase.

Last nite my frends Drew, Jenna, and I loaded my car FULL.

We had a drum set a PA system . guitars and guitar amps.

We drove to PCC church and played with some guys there.

Then we packed up the equipment and were playin 45 minutes away at 1:15 AM.

We got to lead worship for a middle school lock in.

And then we all spent the nite ( after a well deserved I-Hop stop at 3 AM )

Im not that good at guitar.

Drew has been playing drums for just about a month.

Jenna has a great voice.

And we had a blast.

Got to sing to the king.

Got to show middle school kids the infectous love of Christ.

In a smile that is contagous.

Do what you do. It dosen't matter if your the best or not that good. But know Why your doing it. Find a Joy that shines like the morning sun in your smile because you know that God has gifted you and you get to use that gift. We all have a place in the body of christ. We can all bear good fruit. no matter the size. I love guitar.. im gonna keep playing. and practicing.. and gettin better. so that I can sing a love song... to Jesus.

I Carly

Ok so i hardly ever watch tv. But right after school i like to have a snack and I carly is usually on. ( my sister seems to automatically put nickolodeon on ... im a cartoon network kinda guy :P )

It wasn't the show that caught my attention but the theme song...

So wake up the members of my nation

Genesis 12:2
"I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing.

it's your time to be

Isaiah 42:14 "For a long time I have kept silent, I have been quiet and held myself back. But now, like a woman in childbirth, I cry out, I gasp and pant.

theres no chance unless you take one

Luke 9:25
What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?

and its your time to see

John 15:15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.

a brighter side of every situation

1 Peter 1:8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy,

somethings are meant to be

Psalm 139:13
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

so give your best and leave it all to me

Revelation 22:12 "Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done.

So there you have it.. comming to you from one of the founders of the first church of McDonalds ... (trumpets sound .. ba ba da daaa!!!) the I Carly devo! but seriously im gonna take a week to look at one of these verses per day ( and read the scripture around it to fully grasp the context and meaning of what is being said) so i invite you to copy, paste, and print this off. take it one day at a time and read the chapter sorounding these verses. i'd be happy as a bug in a rug if i got feed back. even if its just to tell me how rediculous the idea of an I Carly bible study is .

My prayer is that we can all stay in the Word daily and let God speak to us through scripture. Weather a planed out reading, or a spirit lead moment of " i need to read my bible!". I hope that we can be in tune and let our lives be changed by the plan God has instore for us all.

Im excited

Im excited. for the winter retreat. for friends from far away. for the friends im gettin closer to in the halls at school, for the way my study habits have improved. for oppertuinities that God has put in my life. and for whatever comes next.

Matthew 22:32 "I am the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob' ? He is not the God of the dead but of the living."

Im excited to live each day for a living God. one that offeres adventure and excitment. one that has a plan so much bigger and better that i could ever imagine. a God who answeres prayers from his faithful ones. and who has a promise of eternal life.

I pray that we can all get swept up in Gods plan. that we would let the adventure of following our savior over whelm us so that we have to risk things. and trust God. i hope that we can all find a way to trust in turbulance.