With out integrity how can we believe ourselves? How long can we fool ourselves before we fall. Not long.. Because a lie leads to more secrets. Soon nobody can trust you. and with out trust. They lose hope for you. So without trust there is no hope. So if you can't trust yourself... Hm.Thats where i am tonite. I can't trust myself. I say im one thing.. Then i prove to be another. I need to change. My yes needs to be yes... and my No needs to be no. Because then... i can trust myself.. then ... i have hope. I don't doubt that i will fail. But i hope it never gets this bad again. Cause im starting to lose sight of who i really am.. And who i hoped to be. The audience is always watching.
Hebrews 13:2 Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.
An even greater audience is watching also... an audience of One. The One who knew me before i was born. The one who knows the desires of my heart. And the one who i have to have faith in so i can trust Him and Give my life to him so that i can Hope to be all that he has promised i can be... It seems so simple... Why have i made it so hard.
Pray for me. and my integrity.. im sick of this game. that i play with myself. I can't bear to be luke warm any longer... i know the concequence of that.
7 comments:
right on man...do your thing and dont try to be anything else. you're right, there's always someone watching.
haha but as for that...dude if you wanna try to twist somethin like THAT into a song be my guest :p you guys do need some songs but you cant be that desperate lol
I know exactly what you're talking about. It can be difficult.
A few months ago I was reading where Paul said (paraphrased) if he wanted to be popular with the world, he wouldn't be a christian at all, which helped me because I was dealing with changing myself a bit around my friends who aren't christians; not compromising my personal convictions but not being a witness either (I tend to use the whole "I don't want to be preachy" excuse a lot....) Plus, I found myself not wanted to be judged or labeled for being a Christian either; so when I read that verse it helped me alot. Anyway, just thought I'd share:D
P.S. MewithoutYou is one of my favorite bands.
let the mask fall
it's not bad, well not in my opinion..it reminds me of myself too, it's sorta everyone though. we can always hurt worse...
but, relating to this blog, i wish you the best in finding yourself again...
inappi!
so true, about the audience.
I'm gonna hold you accountable for this blog.
love ya dude.
So true. Prayin' for you. Sometimes we all need to just find who we really are in Him.
Very Profound, love your insightful opinions on this topic.
I like how you quote things from the bible cause you're backing up your insights on truth. Love it!
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