dizzy

Last night I went to bed early. I fealt awfully dizzy. Like light headed. A little nausous ... but mostly just dizzy. I dropped my girl off at her house and she noticed something was wrong. She got so worried about me. I went home and fell right asleep. When I woke up this morning I reached for the cup of water on my night stand and in the motion of bringing my arm from one side of my body to the other my head was sent spinning and I missed the glass all together. Against my girls advice I went to school. The morning was filled with similar glimpses of virtigo. By lunch I fealt much better. My life has become very dizzy since i turned 18. Im so ready to live and yet I dont know what that is supposed to look like. Im gonna go pray now.
Zach

swing life away

It's been a long time since i've fealt like I could just swing life away. since ive been in a place where the friends make it home. I miss feeling at home. I miss living each day onfire for Christ and finding rest in the lawnchairs of friends that truley were brothers and sisters to me. hours spent talking, not havting to do anything. and yet helping eachother through everything. Idk. she makes me feel like that. but its an interesting time in life.. were all about to have the rug pulled out from under us... in the mean time.. watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_WwsA_Ky-k

Combat

So here we find ourselves. silly as it may be.

She is so ready to go into battle... and I'm just trying to stay afloat.

Shes good for me ... you know... Its funny... shes teaching me just what I need...

How to listen.

Plans

I seem to be stressing over my failing plans

It'll be alright, its all in Gods hands...

Why is my eye so squintey?.. hm

The musical

So the 40 day bible has been interesting. im still caught up in exodus... wayyy behind.. but its cool. i need to get in the word more. tonite I went to our spring musical.. Grease. its funny how ronchy the story is.
everyone smokes, everone drinks. If you don't fit in the crowd that constantly fills themselves up with those things then you fit in with the prissy cheer leader crowd. the Jocks that want nothing but to be the best and if they arent the best they are nothing...
It appears there are two solutions to your problems. Conquor them in style ... or run from them with ciggaretts, alcohol, and other worldly crap.
I find myself stuck in the middle. "too weak to give in, too strong to lose"(foo fighters)
What I need to do is run to the cross. To stop feeling like I have to prove myself and to stop thinking that my dreams are too big for me to ever actually accomplish. I need to spend some time in quiet prayer to Jesus. I need to make sure that I'm living for him. cause i need to lose my life to save it. Hm. funny how that works. peace... zach

40 day Bible

Hey guys. so here we go. in this post are listed the dates and what our reading assignments are for those particular dates. first here are some things you should know.

The purpose of this endevour is not to fully understand the scriptures but rather to gain perspective. To read the entire Bible in such a short and intense period will hopfully give us some idea for how vast Gods plan for our salvation is. Above all let God use all the extra time spent in the word to work in your heart.

This is a heafty and intimidating task .. so heres the plan. If you are gettin over stressed, school work is suffering, or relationships... take a break!. taking one or two days off can be just what you need. rather than struggling to keep up . just skip a day or two. then you can go back at the end of the forty days and "fill in the blanks" (read any books you skipped).

I hope that we can all continue to pray for eachother and can all grow stronger in our faith.

Monday, April 20 - Genesis ch 1-25
21- Genesis ch 26-50
22- Exodus ch 1-20
23- Exodus ch 21-40
24- Leviticus
25- Numbers ch 1-18
26- Numbers ch 19-36
27- Deuteronomy
28- Joshua
29- Judges-ruth
30- 1 Samuel
Friday, May 1 - 2 Samuel
2- 1 Kings
3- 2 Kings
4- 1 Chronicals
5- 2 Chronicals
6- Ezra - Nehemiah
7- Esther - Job
8- Psalm 1-50
9- Psalm 51-100
10- Psalm 101- 150
11- Proverbs- Ecclesiastes
12- Song of songs - Isiah ch 33
13- Isiah ch 34- 66
14- Jeramiah ch 1-30
15- Jeramiah ch 31- Lamentations
16- Ezekiel ch 1-24
17- Ezekiel ch 25-48
18- Daniel - Amos
19- Obadiah - Malachi
20- Matthew
21- Mark
22- Luke
23- John
24- Acts
25- Romans - 2 Corinthians
26- Galatians - Philemon
27- Hebrews - Jude
28- Rvelation
29- Fill in the gaps.

Hope you all hear God's voice. and I hope that this experience becomes a blessing and not a burden and a trip to the eye doctors. Remember. No ones making you do this. Listing to Gods call. Grace and Peace.
Zachary

grow up

This weekend I decided it was time to pull the van out of the water. I told her that I couldn't take her to prom. She was pissed. Sooo pissed. But i know it was the right decision. I can't be with someone who is unequally yolked.

If there was a spectrum spanning east to west.

Crazy reliant on Gods provision, like John eating locust in the desert

-VS-

Working hard to provide for myself and being self sufficint (W/O God)

I am headed to the east.

she is headed east. but only plans to travel about 15 more miles that direction. that is because her motivation... her drive to continue is of worldly origin.

I don't know how far God will call me towards the East. But i know that unless my girl is willing to Go the whole way with me ... I can't justify tieing myself down... limiting Gods power.

I need to stretch my legs and run to the east... to the cross.

The world is behind me... no turning back... no turning back.

It's time i stopped blaming my failures on boyhood and began acting like a Man of Christ.